When we moved to Vancouver, I didn’t unpack my painting supplies. They stayed in their box, tucked away on the highest shelf for 6 or 7 years. If anyone asked, I said our new home lacked a good artist’s space.
Eventually, creativity won and I began playing with art again — first, digital art — and later making drawings on scrap paper.
I did a lot of ballpoint pen drawings like these sunflowers.
You already know that my paints finally left their dark box to see the light of day but you don’t know why. It was only when I realized the real reason I wasn’t painting is because I was telling myself I was a bad painter.
Actually, it was true. I was pretty bad at it. Everything I touched ended up either covered in garish green or a horrid pinky-beige. The day I said “So what?” is the day I really began to play. And once I started playing, I started getting better at it.
“So what?” is my chosen mantra for this year — my reminder that challenging tightly-held beliefs can open new doors.
If there’s a “So what?” moment waiting for you, I hope you find it.
PS – Vincent van Gogh knew the torment of self-limiting beliefs. He wrote:
“If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.”